Sunday, November 18, 2012

Letting Go Of Utah

After 41 years of being a resident of Utah, I now have a driver's license and license plates in a new state and am registered to vote and have changed my address with the post office.  I live in a swing state now, so my vote my actually count for something in the next presidential election.

It's weird losing my Utah residency after so long, but it also feels right.

Leaving Mom behind was very difficult, but I've been feeling much less stressed and worried than I was when I was home with her.  I used to get this tight, uncomfortable feeling in my chest, and I notice I haven't been feeling that anymore.  I guess I was under even more stress than I realized. 

You never want to feel that your mother is causing you stress, and those who read this blog regularly know how much I love and adore my mom and know that leaving her to come home to Jonah was very hard to do, but it's like one of Jonah's friends said last night, "It's time to take care of yourself and to take care of this guy [Jonah]."  It's true.

Of course, I miss Mom a lot, and I know she missed me, but I'm glad to be home, and I'm glad that my family is caring for Mom and that she seems to have adapted well to my absence.

I had an audition here the other day that I was really hoping to get.  It was a really good show, a good part that I was really appropriate for, and it would have been good pay and likely a long contract that would have kept me here at home for a while.  There is still a slim chance I could get cast, but as each day passes, it looks more and more like I won't be (although that doesn't preclude me from possibly getting cast in the future).  I found out a friend of Jonah's was cast, so I know they've started making offers, at least.

I was so hoping to get this.  Maybe I still will.  Who knows?  But if I don't, life will go on.  There will be other opportunities.  But I will be disappointed.

Eh, such is the life of an actor, though.  I've had a couple of other auditions and have some more coming up, so hopefully, something will come through.

Anyway, it's good to be home for the holidays.

2 comments:

Dean Scott said...

I am really happy that you and Jonah are together this Thanksgiving. (I apologize for mis-spelling Jonah's name in an earlier comment. I made him John in German). The guy I am dating is in Europe with some work friends - a trip scheduled long before we met. I miss him so much. I can't imagine what it has been like for you and Jonah to be apart for so long. It is your turn for each other.

I was excited to get my first North Carolina drivers license and license plates. I chose the Cape Hatteras Lighthouse as the backgroud for my license. I liked the "First in Flight" Kitty Hawk bi-plane license plate design better than the one Utah had at the time. That was so long ago, when there was only one plate design. I still like my Cape Hatteras Lighthouse drivers license even though the guy in the photo is a lot older than he was in 1990.

Best wishes on the hunt for new acting roles. I will have to make a job decision in the next month or so.

Gay LDS Actor said...

I'm happy we're together, too. It's really been great.

I just got my state driver's license yesterday. It's official. :-)

Good luck on your job decision.